BELIEVE

""Ask, and you will receive..."

The ability to see our dreams, desires and needs in life unfold before our eyes is an amazing experience and a blessing. I believe that everything that we call into our lives comes true if we believe whole-heartedly...

I always said to everyone that I wanted to be on an island in 2020. I wanted to be free from work, responsibility and life's demands. I wanted to spend time doing nothing but everything that my heart and spirit desired. I imagined walking barefoot on the beach with the wind blowing in my face. I imagined looking out to the sky and feeling the sun against my skin. I remember saying that my soul would find freedom in that moment ...

It used to feel sooooo good when I imagined it all. There would be a warm and beautiful feeling that would rise and fill my chest. My face would light up with delight and wonder...This was my deepest desire for 2020. I had no real specifics but that was the idea.

It is now 2020, I have been home for three weeks now. I have work to get done, but it is not as much as usual. I have 18 hours everyday that belong to me. My life schedule is usually really hectic. In comparison to having 6 hours that I usually used to spend sleeping or solving some conundrum in my life. I have been able to kick-start my spiritual journey that had been off since February 2018. I have been able to say hello to my spirit more often and I have been able to find more of myself. My " feel good " and me are back! As much as it can be for an introvert :-) I feel alive, I feel good, I feel happy, I feel blessed, I feel rested, I feel sane, I feel loved, I feel free, I feel soul-full ...

Right now I feel aligned to every dream I have ever had. I have been able to finish and start projects with ease. I have been able to re-connect with people that mean the world to me. I no longer feel anxious and worried about the things that had been left unsaid or incomplete. But more than that I have been able to achieve my four greatest wishes for 2020.

If you have read my posts before you know my fours wishes, but if you haven't - they are below:

1. I want to continue to figure out how to be a better human for myself and others...

2. I want to be able to consistently feel and practice love in every moment...

3. I want to be more creative and inspired ...

Conclusion : My biggest dream would be to continue to have the opportunities to be more of who I am and will be...

I achieved these all in April 2020 after three weeks in lock down.

When you have a dream or a desire, believe. Ask in belief and be patient. It will come to you. It may not be in the way you envisioned but the feeling that dream or desire was meant to give you will happen. For example; I am in my top floor flat in London staring at the sun through my window rather than walking along the beach but the essence of my wish has been fulfilled. The sun still glistens on my face when I open the window and watch the sky .... It feels amazing. It feels good to feel this way.

Whilst this time has been a time for many blessings, it has also been a time of loss.

Many are losing their lives because of COVID-19. Nothing can explain the need for this loss. The severity of the situation grows as each day passes by. I have chosen to keep hopeful and ask for reprieve in earnest. A song that takes me to peace is Whitney Houston's I look to You... It reminds me that we can always have hope, faith and believe in what is greater than us ...

"I Look To You"

As I lay me down,
 Heaven hear me now.
 I'm lost without a cause
 After giving it my all.
 
 Winter storms have come
 And darkened my sun.
 After all that I've been through
 Who on earth can I turn to?
 
 I look to you.
 I look to you.
 After all my strength is gone,
 In you I can be strong
 I look to you.
 I look to you.
 And when melodies are gone,
 In you I hear a song.
 I look to you.
 
 About to lose my breath,
 There's no more fighting left,
 Sinking to rise no more,
 Searching for that open door.
 
 And every road that I've taken
 Led to my regret.
 And I don't know if I'm going to make it.
 Nothing to do but lift my head
 
 I look to you.
 I look to you.
 And when all my strength is gone,
 In you I can be strong
 I look to you.
 I look to you.
 And when melodies are gone,
 In you I hear a song.
 I look to you.
 
 My levees are broken
 My walls have come
 Tumbling down on me
 
 The rain is falling.
 Defeat is calling.
 I need you to set me free.
 
 Take me far away from the battle.
 I need you.
 Shine on me.
 
 I look to you.
 I look to you.
 After all my strength is gone,
 In you I can be strong
 I look to you.
 I look to you.
 And when melodies are gone,
 In you I hear a song.
 I look to you.

As I wrote this, I thought it would be a good idea to add my playlist of uplifting songs to this post. I hope it keeps you hopeful for a better day to come.

Playlist link: Coming soon