Mantra is a word or sound that is repeated as a prayer. Mantra is a word or sound that is believed to have a special spiritual power. A mantra expresses strong belief.
The second mantra in my life is Please Don't Leave. I once met the love that I had always imagined. He showed his love in a way that was captivating. He was unleashed, uninhibited and unconditional. I knew that I had been blessed to meet him. That feeling was one I wanted to hold onto forever. As you may have guessed by now, I believe that whatever I am seeking from others or love in others is exactly what I am not giving to myself. It is a gift that I am sitting on and not sharing with myself. Sigh...
Perfectionism is my daily battle in life. There are times that I am winning for months and then one day, I just do not do so well. On this day perfectionism will control, manipulate and judge. It is similar to taking a bitter pill every minute of that day. Especially if I had actually been in the wrong or if I had hurt someone. I would be back to battling worry, anxiety and quickly losing peace ... I would be back on another self-improvement journey to fix another thing that is wrong with me.
The new love taught me that love can be free of conditions or expectations. Love for me exists not because of what I do but just because I exist. When he left, I made a vow to keep this feeling forever. I wanted to love myself unconditionally. It was the thing that I needed to be truly free - unleashed. I had to find ways I could generate this feeling on my own. How could I love myself unconditionally every day? How could I show up with no judgement everyday? How could I silence the critic who demanded perfection every time?
I had written a song about the feeling during the time we were together. I completed it after he had left. As I listened to it, I came to an outstanding discovery. I discovered that I had captured the feeling of self-love in the song! I discovered that the antidote to my perfectionism was self love.
When perfectionism knocks at my door, I smile and look to my soul. I remind myself that I am love. I remind myself that I am worthy. I remind myself that I am love; even when I am wrong. I am love even when I am not at my best. I am love.
I remind myself about why I love myself so much and implore my love to stay with me. Trust me, this feels a million trillion times better than berating and terrorising myself. Rather than working on not making mistakes, I work on making things better. Rather than feeling guilt and shame, I focus on being thankful for the opportunity for my enlightenment and transformation. I ask my love for me to stay with me.
PLEASE DON'T LEAVE:
This high that you give
No one else can compete love
And every second that I breathe
I want share it with you love ..
So please don't leave
Don't leave me now
Please don't leave
Dont' leave me now
You are perfect for me
No one else can compete
I'll take all of you
Oh baby baby baby
Just say the word
Just say the word
Please don't leave
Baby baby now please don't leave me
Would you stay forever
Would you stay, Would you stay, Would you stay
Would you stay forever
Baby baby now won't you stay
Would you, would you
Stay Forever
Would you, would you
Stay Forever
Would you, would you
Stay Forever
I want you to stay baby
Would you, would you
Stay Forever
Would you, would you
Stay Forever
Would you, would you
Stay Forever
I want you stay baby
STAY STAY BABY, huuuuh