Mantra is a word or sound that is repeated as a prayer. Mantra is a word or sound that is believed to have a special spiritual power. A mantra expresses strong belief.
The second mantra in my life is Please Don't Leave. I once met someone that I loved unconditionally. He struggled with who I was yet still tried his best to accept me for who I was. I knew that I had been blessed to meet him because through this experience the idea of unconditional love imprinted itself more deeply into my mind. The more I thought about what this type of love would feel like, the more obsessed I got with the idea. The idea felt so delicious I wanted to hold onto the feeling it gave me forever.
As you may have guessed by now, I believe that whatever I am deeply desiring, seeking from others or love in others is exactly what I am not giving to myself. It is a gift that I am sitting on and not sharing with myself. Sigh...
Self-doubt is my daily battle in life. There are times that I am winning for months and then one day, I just do not do so well. On this day self-doubt will control, manipulate and judge. It is similar to taking a bitter pill every minute of that day. Especially if I had actually been in the wrong or if I had hurt someone. I would be back to battling worry, anxiety and quickly losing peace ... I would be back on another self-improvement journey to fix another thing that is wrong with me!
The new love experience taught me that I wanted a love that can be free of conditions or expectations. I wanted a love that existed not because of what I do but just because I exist, just because I am. I then made a vow to keep this idea of love with me forever. I wanted to love myself unconditionally. It was the thing that I needed to be truly free - unleashed. I had to find ways I could generate this feeling on my own. How could I love myself unconditionally every day? How could I show up with no judgement everyday? How could I silence the critic who demanded my perfection every time?
I had started writing a song about the feeling during the time I was in the relationship then completed it after he had left. As I listened to it, much to my delight I came to an outstanding discovery! I discovered that I had captured the feeling of self-love in the song! I discovered that the antidote to my self-doubt was practicing self love consistently.
When self-doubt knocks at my door, I now smile and look to my soul. I remind myself that I am love. I remind myself that I am worthy. I remind myself that I am love; even when I am wrong. I am love even when I am not at my best. I am love. I am love because my intention is always love. No matter how it is interpreted or the outcome, what was in my heart was love.
I remind myself about why I love myself so much and implore my love to stay with me. Trust me, this feels a million trillion times better than berating and terrorising myself. Rather than working on not making mistakes, I work on making things better. Rather than feeling guilt and shame, I focus on being thankful for the opportunity for my enlightenment and transformation. I ask my love for me to stay with me.
PLEASE DON'T LEAVE:
This high that you give
No one else can compete love
And every second that I breathe
I want share it with you love ..
So please don't leave
Don't leave me now
Please don't leave
Dont' leave me now
You are perfect for me
No one else can compete
I'll take all of you
Oh baby baby baby
Just say the word
Just say the word
Please don't leave
Baby baby now please don't leave me
Would you stay forever
Would you stay, Would you stay, Would you stay
Would you stay forever
Baby baby now won't you stay
Would you, would you
Stay Forever
Would you, would you
Stay Forever
Would you, would you
Stay Forever
I want you to stay baby
Would you, would you
Stay Forever
Would you, would you
Stay Forever
Would you, would you
Stay Forever
I want you stay baby
STAY STAY BABY, huuuuh
Love, love me like this forever.
The link to the song is below: